Today I am again playing with cards, just as I did the other day HERE.
There has been a lot of change in the day to day things of my life. Nothing huge, just mundane stuff, like joining a new gym (after having been with my old one for about 3 years) and switching to cable after being with satellite for 10 years. Through most of my life, such changes were nothing. I always adapted easily. But lately, I feel stubborn and weird about changes, even if they are good ones.
Today I asked why I am being this way. I randomly pulled three cards from the Deck of 1000 Spreads to create the positions, then shuffled and drew randomly fro the Steampunk. Here is my reading:
The Health card (the text on the card hidden by the Page of Cups) says that this position can be either physical or emotional health. So apparently I am being a big, emotional baby, which certainly feels true.
In the Past position, I have Death. In the past, I loved the change that Death brought. I embraced it and loved moving on, recreating myself and my life. But there was always a sense of a total cut, a total separation.
So what do I make of the 5 of Pents in the “others” positions? The text on the Others card says it can be others or society in general. I think it is because I associate the changes with lack, since several of them are because of financial decisions.
I love my life. But I am acting like a big baby who thinks that these changes are reflecting a life that is “less than.” I am forgetting the reason for the changes, which have more to do with improving my lifestyle in ways that prioritize things other than money.
There is much more to all this and sharing personal readings are difficult. I think, though, that I’ve shared enough to illustrate my main point, which is Tarot rocks and the Deck of 1000 Spreads rocks right along with it. It helps me ask the questions that need to be asked, in ways they need to be asked, even if I don’t consciously know what they are…until the cards are revealed.